Light

In the dark
I found some sunlight.
Holding on to your
bright glow,
the darkness no longer
surrounds me.

Club Insanity

I can't sleep
and there are monsters
at my window
and a spider in my bath
I want to put on
my shoes and run
away from this
insomnia
and I just earned
my membership card
in club insanity

Shoes

I put my prettiest shoes on,
tonight I want to dance.
I take my time in the bath,
making myself beautiful.
The shoes are shined,
and looking at me
from the corner of the room.
I can't wait for you to come,
take me by the hand.
I am glowing like a star.
All ready I sit down
on a chair to wait,
smiling to myself,
soon I know I'll be dancing.

Insomnia II

I doubt my sanity
I doubt my reality
I put my head down to rest
but thoughts are running
through my head
I scream at them
to slow down
to let me sleep
but insomnia has
taken me
is hugging me
singing it's crazy
lullabies to me

Insomnia

I want what you have
but will not give me
I am no longer myself
but masked
in layers of
medications.
Your life is good
but I can't sleep.
I am drained empty
no more life
no more passion
just the same after
the same after
the same
Someone rescue me,
someone take me by the hand
show me where is life
So many years wasted
and still no light
let me sleep.

16/09/10

I don't miss God

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
those years spent
wanting
dreaming
hoping
I want them all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
years yearning
for adulthood
making bad choices
I want them all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence,
before the first blood
before the first cut in
my virginal white skin
I want it all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
before time mattered
and the hardest thing
was homework
I want it all back

I want God to put it right
what he got so wrong
leaving me here alone
I want my innocence
I want my life
I want it all back

Shinemyrtle

Loneliness

Walking through town she feels like an ethereal being,
like she is floating through the world,
that she can see it but not be a part of it.
She knows no one and there is no one she wants to know.
Her own little world that she created for herself,
it is enough for her.
She is deeply lonely but she is used to it,
and rather lonely than rejected.
The world is such a beautiful place,
but she feels that she will have to give up
to much of herself to be a part of it,
and that she is not ready for yet.
Maybe one day she will enter into the world, and see it differently.
Only those closest to her is of consequence to her,
for them she will lay down her life.
It was her love that drew her to this place,
she can never regret her love and never blame him
for being trapped in a bubble that is impenetrable to anyone else.
When in fact she does want the peace of being alone,
and the love of her man above all else.