Enemies

I don't have enemies,
I don't need any,
I have me.

Welcoming the night

I feel a strange peace,
now it's the end
of the day.
Dusk is here, and in
just a little while now,
and I can go to my rest.
There is nothing more
to be done, just a tidy up
then bed.
I shall have a restful sleep,
a glorious sleep,
and I will embrace the night.
When the night comes,
I'll be safe in my
midnight blue cover,
dreaming of good things.
Never shall I freeze again,
and never worry,
no more pain and
no more waking.

Shinemyrtle

Colours II

There was a picture,
that hung on a wall,
far, far from here.
It lived in an orange house,
and I lived there too.
It's colours were
green and yellow,
a beautiful picture.
It was a yellow horse
in a field.
It would draw me in,
and I would travel,
far, far away past that field.
It could take me
anywhere I wanted.
Wonder if that painting
still lives there.

Shinemyrtle.

Colours

I want to finger paint
the world around me.
Put my hands in the
bucket of paint,
and feel its battery
texture on the palms
of my hands.
Before I smear it
on the walls.
With each stroke,
leaving just a little
of me behind.
I want to pour the
colour over my head,
let it envelope
my body.
Using my hands,
covering every inch
of my body,
in the plastic colours,
that are this world.

Shinemyrtle

Just you and me

Let's just me and you
Pack a bag and leave
Leave everything behind
Give me a new chance
Let me have a new life
One where you can be
The big strong one
I'll hold you up while
You protect me
Against the world
Keeping me safe
In a world where
There is only you and me
I'll look after you and
You will protect me
against the world

I would give up every one
And every thing
In my life for this
For an escape
Escape from myself
In to a world with
Just you and me
Pick me up and carry
Me away from this place
We'll be happy
Just you and me
I promise never to
ever hurt you
Let's just go away from here
Go to the cabin in
The middle of nowhere
Just you and me

Shinemyrtle

How could you hurt me

How could you hurt me so?
You blew hot and cold,
left me unable to trust me,
and unable to trust another.
It hurt when you went,
and not once did you say
I love you, baby, see you soon.

How could you hurt me so?
You pulled that gun out,
you wanted to kill us all,
and you were so, so drunk.
How can I trust another,
that I won't get hurt again,
that my trust won't be crushed.

How could you hurt me so?
That I had to make up for it
in slowly destroying myself.
I wasn't worth your time,
you laughed at my weaknesses,
but I tried, I really tried,
again and again and again.

How could you hurt me so?
I am still hurting, and trying,
to get your love and attention.
I am a good girl really,
I wish you would see it too.
Instead you turn away, and
pretend you can't see my pain.

How could you hurt me so?
You left me deflated, and
full of hurt and emptiness.
It is so hard to fill the hole
you tore from my body,
when you rejected me again,
and again and again.

How could you hurt me so?
The protector, you were weak,
you did not deserve us.
The confusion you left behind
it was so easy to walk away,
You left so little, and it's so hard,
to give that little I have left to another.

Shinemyrtle

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I'm coming out of the shadows to meet you,
peeling of my layers of protection.
I need you and want you beside me,
to support me so I can bloom.
I want you to be my layers now,
keep me safe from wind and rain,
keep me nourished with your attention.
So I need never starve again.

Shinemyrtle

Cinderella

Oh, Cinderella,
why did you marry so soon?
Did you in your girlish mind,
think you would be happy forever?
That his money and face
would be enough for you.
Did you think the morning would come
when you woke up thinking,
“oh, what have I done?
Twenty odd years on a man I don't really love.”
Your loyalty is strong,
and you have children, now grown.
He took you away from your hell,
but trapped you in a cage.
You will be together forever,
though you don't love him, he loves you.
So another twenty odd years go by,
and what have you done with your time?
Almost fifty years you have together,
and one year ran into another.
One day much the same as the next,
another year the same as the last.
Now you are old, and looking back,
you know you did the right thing,
but you can't help a regret or two.
He has been good to you,
but oh so boring it was, and now,
now you think of your regrets,
things you wish you had done, if only,
if only you had the courage.
He still has a pretty face, and he still loves you,
he still is prince Charming.
So you take his hand and you walk together,
and the years will continue like this.
You, never free from the cage, safe but protected,
knowing you'll be together forever.

Shinemyrtle

Cinderella II

Oh, Cinderella,
the rumours you heard were true.
Could you have said no when he asked you?
Would you have said no even if you knew?
Was the devil you knew better, or are you
happy now?

Shinemyrtle