I don't miss God

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
those years spent
wanting
dreaming
hoping
I want them all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
years yearning
for adulthood
making bad choices
I want them all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence,
before the first blood
before the first cut in
my virginal white skin
I want it all back

I don't miss God
but I do miss innocence
before time mattered
and the hardest thing
was homework
I want it all back

I want God to put it right
what he got so wrong
leaving me here alone
I want my innocence
I want my life
I want it all back

Shinemyrtle

Loneliness

Walking through town she feels like an ethereal being,
like she is floating through the world,
that she can see it but not be a part of it.
She knows no one and there is no one she wants to know.
Her own little world that she created for herself,
it is enough for her.
She is deeply lonely but she is used to it,
and rather lonely than rejected.
The world is such a beautiful place,
but she feels that she will have to give up
to much of herself to be a part of it,
and that she is not ready for yet.
Maybe one day she will enter into the world, and see it differently.
Only those closest to her is of consequence to her,
for them she will lay down her life.
It was her love that drew her to this place,
she can never regret her love and never blame him
for being trapped in a bubble that is impenetrable to anyone else.
When in fact she does want the peace of being alone,
and the love of her man above all else.