A home

Every brick to build
a house, a home.
Filled with crap,
every home has
it's own shit.

Shinemyrtle

I know your face

I know your face from somewhere
It will come to me
Do you come here often
Burning the midnight oil

I know your face
Please remind me
Where we in hospital together
Or were we clubbing

Do you go to the library
Your face is in my head
If only I could remember why
Your smell is familiar too

I know your face, where it's from
I remember where I met you
I remember the violation
When you took me without consent

You showed me the true worth
Of me and my body
Good enough to fuck,
But not enough to love.
However you didn't beat me yet,
I am still here and I'm not scared


Shinemyrtle

Silkweb

He may be there when you wake up,
but I doubt it very much.
You were spinning yourself a
silkweb hoping to catch him.
Maybe next time.

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The hands in the walls
are closing in on me
again.
Trying to touch, grabbing at me.
It's no longer cute,
and no longer funny.
I have to run before
the walls close in on me
again.

Shinemyrtle

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You have no salvation
You have no hope
You have no redemption
You're the one who is going
to tell me how to save me
Show me how to have hope
Show me my redemption
I'll overcome my own addiction

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I touch myself
to fall asleep,
there is no one here
to see.
I'll be my own lover,
and my own best friend.
I can forget everything
in the blur of the night.
Making time go past
for another day to follow.
Waiting for your words,
waiting for your letters,
waiting for your touch.
Anticipating your lovemaking.
I want a little too much of
everything.

Shinemyrtle

Tell Me

Don't tell me what I should do;
show me, guide me, how to be
a part of this world.
Chase the devil away, make the
grey fog disappear.
I want to see clearly,
be free to do all the things you do.
I scream and shout, but
nothing works.
I laugh out loud, and chat
online.
My keys don't fit,
I am in the wrong world.

Shinemyrtle

Somebody Saved Me

Somebody saved my life last night,
I was standing on the edge of the abyss.
Looking down into a cold, dirty river,
screaming,
he was the only one that heard my voice.
I never will thank him,
I wish he had let me go.

Shinemyrtle

Rain on Your Face

I see you standing there
in the rain.
Your face is wet and
your hair is dripping,
are you crying girl?
Hush baby, it's going to
be ok.
We'll put the pieces of your
life back together.
Just take me by the hand,
and you'll see,
there is nothing we can't mend.
Just keep trying.

Shinemyrtle

Some Days

Some days I am just waiting,
some days I feel I've come home,
some days I am floundering,
some days I swear I am drowning.

Some days I want to be rescued,
some days I can stand on my own two feet,
some days I sleep to escape,
Some days are just beautiful.

Some days I love you desperately,
some days I want to run away,
I always wish I was good for you,
but mostly I wish I could just be.

Shinemyrtle

Purified

I let my soul fly away
and the river run through
my heart.
My soul returns purified,
dreaming of you.

Shinemyrtle

Norwegian Winter

Like a million stars
trapped in the snow,
under a deep royal blue
velvet sky.
The incredible magic of
the Norwegian winter.
You can see the road to the
Goddess' house in the sky.
A green glowing path with
stars scattered like flowers
in her garden.

Shinemyrtle

No More

No more tired
No more sad
No more drowning
No more anything

Shinemyrtle

Life

Sometimes I see my life like
the dregs of a glass after a party.
Was it good or was it lame,
How can I tell and how can I turn it around?
You found another girl and
got off with her in the bathroom,
I'm stuck here with the geezer
who is trying to impress.

If I drink enough, maybe I'll
do something to be remembered.
If I drink enough, maybe I'll
forget this night altogether.
I look at the dregs at the bottom
of this glass, as if it is my life.
I don't like what I see.

So I'll fill it up again and try again,
hoping for a better ending next time.
Baby, with you, I dance in the dark,
learning new steps all the way.
Without you I fall apart.

Shinemyrtle

Delusions or lies

All the ladies want a piece of you,
I think you are mine, but I
can never know.
When they are around you,
you forget all about me.
You like to make believe,
and you say all my anger
is unjustified – I can't leave.
Am I the one with the delusions,
or are you telling lies...

Shinemyrtle

Baby I see the Pain

Baby I see the pain,
I see the pain in your eyes,
when you look at me.
You know I am hurting,
you know so much,
so much more than
you should.
I see the pain in your eyes,
I'm willing you to look away,
to let yourself be distracted.
Please forget my pain.
I see my pain multiplied,
when I look in your eyes.
I see my pain in your eyes,
where you try to take it on,
as you try to rescue me.
Swim away, swim ashore, baby,
before you drown.

Shinemyrtle